Finally

Along with the winds,
I once thought.
Following it was all I am not.

Winds that carried whatever I had
I did not care.
Even as I was stripped bare,
I was near my internal flare.

I kissed rain and summer sunshine
Hoping I can be fine
But all I got was a mist
That comes and goes as quick

I wanted so much to be part of something
But then I had almost lost everything
All the genuine love I got
I conveniently forgot.

I chose to see what my eyes didn’t tell
No difference, I just fell
I did not have my own please
I fell whenever the ground ceased

I looked up without realizing
How much hurt I was bringing
When all I did was admire
My thoughts went hay –wire

A familiar ground I leeched upon
Like a parasite I sucked on and on
But now I want to evolve out
Be that person I have always dreamed about

I have a second chance at redemption
Should I choose well and master retention?
For I know I can do this now
Do it once and never falter

I had a life that was easily shaken
But now I want to be unmistaken
I want to be happy knowing I am me
Doing what I please, whoever I can be

I am a person with my own character
Why should I let anyone tell me otherwise?
I can’t be perfect, I can only be me
That is good enough for me

I need to love myself before I can love others
Know that I am every bit worthy of another
Love is something that is wholehearted
How can anyone love half hearted?

Love and fear cannot go together.
You do it cos of love not cos of fear.
I wanna be with you cos i love you,
Not cos i fear being alone.

Feeding off a feeling that is only temporary
Won’t give you anything.
I believe in myself that I am every bit worthy
I know I am happy whatever I choose

I cannot be ruled by others or their thinking
I cannot be ruled by what I am feeling
I cannot be so adamant on anything too long
For life is short and I can be wrong

I love the love that I have
Not everyone can have what I have
As days go by I must remind myself
It’s not easy to do everything yourself
People are there for a reason.

Being alone and thinking you’re strong
Sometimes you need to face wrong
Eat fear before it eats you,
Courage is knowing its hard, but still going through.

I can’t change whatever I cant
I can’t control what can’t be controlled.
I can only do my best in everything
And love and hope in anything.

Be happy as life is happy
Problems are temporary and shelter is near
All you have to do is not fear fear
Love, faith and hope is all so dear

I am thankful for my life for my doings
I can do better but I am happy.
No more putting myself down,
Why should I when I have my own crown.

I am me and thats all I will ever be.
Its today I learn or tomorrow it’s another flee.
Smile. Love and have courage.
Life has only one shot, take it.

I no longer fear fear,
I want to love love.