Stay Beautiful - The Last Goodnight

He knew my previous entries werent true. He knew i wrote them only to make myself look fine, but he knew i wasnt fine, and only he knew how much i was hurting. He knew how much we went through, but he also knew that it could never work out. But it did, and i have never been more happy.

Its knowing that despite all the screwed things that has happened already, he is still here to stay. He does not want me to go, and i am not leaving anywhere. We might be 2000 miles apart, but if both of us have a common feeling towards a common goal, we'll work at it day by day. Its not going to be easy, but if both of us puts in equal effort and stay happy, things can be worked out.

All it takes is a belief and that reaffirmation that you're not alone, even when everything is stacked against us, even when we thought we'll never get through this, we did. And its not cos we feared being alone, its becos we knew we loved each other.

Through good times and bad, through happiness and sadness, he is here to stay and so am i. I am no longer shaken by what others have told me, cos i found in my heart to stick to that believe i have in us, and in myself. No one can tell me what to do, and everyone will have something to say about me or us, whether its bad or good, i dont care. Cos i know his feelings for me, and i am no longer afraid of getting hurt. We all can only do our best for everything we do, so at the end of the day we owe it to no one but ourselves. Its a hiccup, a major hiccup we had, but its over now, and we're happy now. I thought i would have lost that person who meant so much to me, but i did not. And my appreciation for that starts today and will be till we possibly can hold on for as long as possible.

I know now what it feels to be part of something so simple yet so beautiful. And i hope we'll always stay beautiful.