Time of your life- Green Day

I realized one thing about myself.
I think A LOT.
i think about everything and anything that can possibly be thought about. what you're thinking about, i have probably thought about. and i never stop thinking unless i'm alseep. but once i'm up, the whole thinking thing begins again. even when i'm riding and cruising down an expressway, one side of my brain will concentrate on the traffic, but still, i'll be thinking.

just the other day as i was reading off the net, i came across this article on this person's blog, something about doing something all the way without a back up plan. its called "burning your bridges". at first i thought how can anyone possibly do that. being as calculative and meticulous as i am, i dont leave even the slightest bit of detail amiss. i measure out every possible scenario and replay it over and over again in my head until it becomes obsessive. then when i really really wanna find something out, i'll pour myself over the internet and books. and basically i always know what to do, when to do, how to do. so how can anyone do something and burn his bridges back without the slightest worry?

but as i pondered and thought hard about it, i realized that there is some level of truth or low degree of discrepancy there. the article gave an example of a war, where upon reaching the enemy's land, the king ordered his people to burn all their ships and all their modes of transport back. this was so they wont give up and feel that they can always retreat if they were losing. needless to say, they won the war. another example was success cases of an acrobat who walks a tight rope without having any harnesses attached or without any safety net below.

so what makes this examples so fine? i feel that they are great examples of determination and deterrence. by not having any back up plan to fall back on in case this or that doesnt work out, you indirectly unleash your fullest potential. bcos without a back up plan, you go all out for whatever you're doing, cos u have no doubt about what you're pursuing. (and because u know u cant give up since there is no back up plan.) but of cos, just like the article mentioned also, this going all out and not having a back up plan is only and only when you know u really want something so bad, and you know you have acquired the necessary skills, knowledge, information etc to truly succeed in the thing you chose to go all out for. so if you're doing something right now that you will gain immensely from for your future choice, make sure you use it to go all out for something you want.

which brings me back to what do i want?
i know what i want, its just that i think too much, and apart from knowing what i want, i begin to think of all the what ifs and also i wont deny, the money issue. how much can i earn if i choose this as my profession.

if i follow this way of goal setting ie burning all my bridges, i know that no matter what, if i really want to make money, whichever i choose, i will do it. bcos i have that drive and that strong determination to succeed no matter what. everyone says that about me. so i will continue to do what i want to do, and burn all my bridges. i wont allow myself to steer off, and i wont allow myself to worry unnecessarily.

i can and i will succeed. i wont let anyone or anything make me think otherwise.

u can look at the article if you're interested: http://briankim.net/blog/2007/11/burning-your-
bridges-vs-having-a-backup-plan/