Of all we've known - Just Surrender

as always whenever mum and i have one of those mother-daughter pep talks, i never fail to get affected deeply by her words. not in a bad way, but in a very hard realization way. she's the one who brings me down whenever i'm too high up there. when everything seems like nothing can go wrong, and i'm having the time of my life, she by some way or another will seem to be the one that brings me down. not in a critical way. but in a caring, and very subconscious way. like as if she wants me to realize life cant be so perfect all the time. and after each of these talks, i normally will stop, rewind and reevaluate my life. i will think about it, i will make weigh out every word she said, compare it with my actions, relate it and agree or disagree with it. and i always agree with it.

its been too long, maybe not that long, but its been long enough for me to test my character. i have been trying to hide a lot of things about me which i don't like. I've been lying low, trying hard not to let it spill. i tolerated a lot of things. but yesterday was just one of those days. one of those days where nothing seems to go right, where everyone seems to be against you, where u suddenly just feel so irritated with the whole world.

I'm gonna be miles away from her soon. and as she said that, i too realized that i will definitely feel lost in those times i need her advice and her support. she's done so much for me, and she has taught me so much about life.

"we have the greatest gift of all, life. we all have one life. no matter how rich, how popular, how famous, we all have only one chance at life. we all live once. but there are plenty, plenty chances to always improve, to always change, to always be better."

"whenever you feel any negative emotions, imagine a large ocean, put all your negativity into the bottle, screw the cap real tight and throw it as far as you can and let the ocean take it to another world. you might have to do it over and over again, because you cant put all your negativity in at one time. but slowly, everything will be out there somewhere and you will forget about it"

"you're talented, you can write. and i know that. its natural for you, same as me, i too write very well. but don't use your talent for the wrong reasons. It is a gift. A special gift from God. Appreciate your gift."

"call it foolish, stupid, ignorant, any adjective you can use, but it takes a bigger man to walk away from a fight then to stay in it and lose your values"

"why allow yourself to go down to the same level as that person. allow that person to say what he wants, in the end its him that will feel small. not you."

"you're gonna be mile and miles away from me, how can i not worry, i cant be there to advice you, to guide you. you're all on your own"

"i don't expect you to be perfect, i understand we're all human. you think i'm so good natured? no i argue, i quarrel, i get angry, i get sad. thats what makes us humans. but i don't use words to hurt others. to slice. to make the person feel as hurt as you are"

"i don't expect you to be happy 24/7. if you are, then u must be on drugs. because only drug abusers can feel happy always. they're dreaming. they're in lala land. they're cowards. they cannot face the reality, cannot control their emotions. they rather just black out everything and be happy then take charge of their lives."

"take control of your emotions, before your emotions take over you. Its very easy to cross that line of good and bad. the road to evil is always straight and easy but the road to goodness is always filled with obstacles."

"its an achievement to me that i raised 4 kids alone in my own house and its another achievement to me that one of my kids is going to a university."

"don't allow your negative side to overwhelm you so much that it consumes you and makes that good side of you gone."

"intelligent very talented people are in jail now, why? lawyers are running away with 10 million dollars, entrepreneurs are embezzling tens of millions of dollars from companies. they have everything, but they allowed themselves to get consumed by negative emotions.


all she said to me are etched in my mind.

there's a time and place for everything.