Closer to you -The Wallflowers

today he planned something simple for me. a dinner at a restaurant that claimed to give a free movie pass if we dined there. knowing it was too good to be true, i remained skeptical. true enough the serviced sucked, the food was substandard and the best part was that they went back on their word to give the free movie pass. i got real edgy and asked him to settle it with the manager. when she started raising her voice at him even as he spoke nicely, i intervene and told her off. how dare she treat customers that way. i asked her what kind of service does she have and that she was running a very bad business. damn, i can stand bad ambiance and bad food but i CANNOT stand bad service, especially if the boss herself cant even give good service. ended up, i nearly lost it, i just walked out quickly and tried to cool down. man, arab st is notorious for bad service. reminds me when mada told me abt her experience at one of the restaurants there too.

the restaurant's name is AMBROSIA at arab st. you've been warned.

i realized how much he means to me each and every time we both come across a sticky situation. he always remains calm while i rant off endlessly and shoot my mouth like a sailor man's wife. he was really understanding about it, he just waited for me to cool down by myself. he left me alone. he did not try to make me feel better until i was ready. and when i hugged him to signal that i was ready, he asked very thoughtfully if i was still mad. seeing him being so sweet and concerned i told him no. but man, that woman just spoilt my dinner rotten.

but as we both cheered each other up, we walked down the ECP thinking we might have an exit out to suntec. as we video-ed and cam-ed in the middle of the expressway and dodged frogs as we thread on the wet grass, we realized we had no exit to suntec. so we slowly walked back and even though it was something so simple, being there with him makes so much difference. we reached suntec, and chilled at a cosy corner at starbucks. taking in the xmas slow songs, and just enjoying each other's company.

it was simple, but yet i felt it was so empowering, so endearing. he means so much to me, each time he leaves, i feel so grateful. he makes me feel so comfortable in my own skin. and i know i can tell him anything and he'll understand. he knows me and he doesnt care less about my flaws. he just sees me for me. he doesnt judge, or question, doesnt doubt or look down on me. he sees me as me. and i cant feel anymore grateful and happy.

we're so comfortable with each other and to me thats more important then love itself. love is secondary to me, you only know how much you really love someone when you face problems and troubles together. and love will always be like a passing cloud. it'll never be like the sun, always there. the comfort and the knowing feeling between two people is like the sun. it's always there. even at night, the moon's light comes from the sun. when you can see someone for exactly what that person is without the slightest insincerity and insecurity, and when you can be so comfortable with someone, love comes naturally. we cant find perfect love, we can only be as perfect as we are. we all deserve a chance to love and be loved back. no one should compromise that.

*thanks sweets for making all that effort, and even though our dinner hadnt work out, i enjoyed everything after that*