Everyone has a soulmate

sometimes in life u make decisions. life-changing, ground-breaking, nerve-wrecking, outtamind insane totally un-redo-able decisions. and we ask ourselves why. why we chose this, why not that and so on. but is life really about the whys? is it really about knowing every single thing out there possible? and doing the reanalysing over and over again with no end to it? i believe somehow, its not why we do everything, but a how. how can we make this situation better? how can i improve? how can i give my best? how can i learn out of this and apply it so that my future can be better? sometimes, when u feel all alone after making a decision, rem that u dun have to be in coleasce w the entire world out there. its not about fitting in. its about fitting rite. doesnt matter if ur alone. as long as it fits rite, u will be happy. whether u feel alone or whether u feel a decision u make might hinder u from being normal, just rem that at least u dared to be different. how many of us out there dare to be different? dare to move out of the comfort zone. the things we're familiar with. how many of us can actually make a choice to be different and let everyone else around them laugh at u and shake their heads in pity. how do u face adversity and have the strength to still go on despite everyone else or everything else ard u falling apart?

sometimes all it takes is having different perspectives and having different approaches. when u come across a barrier, do u give up and turn ard and walk back the same way u came from? sometimes it just takes a little spark of energy, a little eureka feeling. and sometimes, we just never know, we often give up just at the point when we were about to succeed. its about being creative, thinking out of the box. and doing what u know is best. whatever others say wont matter. cos at the end of the day, if u have done ur best, noone will question ur motives and intentions. noone but yourself can doubt your own self. and if u are confident and undoubtful of ur actions, noone can say otherwise.

i used to have a comfort zone. a zone of dependance on others. where i can nicely dump my problems and my mood swings hoping that my comfort zone will swallow it all up and throw me a rescue boat. but i've come to realise that that comfort zone is a fake. its just a pit where sooner or later it'll overflow. and i'll be worst off then started. so then i made a decision. to stand up entirely by myself. give myself the time to have a character so defined, noone can tear it down. give myself allowances for mistakes and problems but nonetheless more mistakes and problems means more lessons and opportunities for me.

i believe in myself. and i know i made the right decision. so what if everyone seems to be doing something different then me? i know i have a mind that is not like the others. i'm gifted. and i expect no less of myself. i am sticking w my choice no matter what the circumstances. cos i am determined this time around, not to prove others wrong, but this time, to prove myself wrong.

*like a flower that blooms out of a rock, adversity blooms courage and independance.*