A new perspective

Sometimes a simple change of perspective can make all the difference. It can be like the dawn of a new day. -Anthony Fernando





I need a break. From everything that has been holding me back. From all the unused emotions, all the negative thoughts, all the 'what ifs' and 'if onlys' and 'perhaps'. I need to break free from all that is holding me back. i can no longer be the submissive person, full of compunction and endless feelings. I have to keep in touch with what makes me happy. and i have to focus on keeping what makes me happy.

People disappoint. They hurt. and they may make u feel useless, unwanted and unaccomplished. Friends that come and go, just like the season. Love ones who turns their backs on you when u need them most. love is so complex. and love is so hard to define. My way is simple. Murphy's law- to expect the unexpected. but more importantly- faith. Faith is simply believing in the things which cannot be seen, and knowing its what keeps you going on to do something without a single doubt. we all make mistakes in the choices we make. but its only when we fail to recognise these mistakes and allow it to overcome us and control us, is then when we are truly failers. I realised that human nature is what it is and always will be. Sometimes, people can be really be great company, laughter, joy and happiness. but nothing lasts forever. and ppl leave.

To me real friendship takes effort. Effort to stay in touch and not as a last minute resort. To be there for you and vice versa. friendship works two ways. in fact any relationship works two ways. and its sad, bcos due to human nature, sometimes u expect too much from someone, but u just get disappointed over and over again. the heart is so fragile. so then, here comes the new perspective, be always ready for hurt, disappointment and intense sadness. cos its only when ur at the lowest valley, can u fully appreciate when ur at the highest mountain. life like a mirror, never gives back what we put in it.

Its funny how meeting someone after so long, esp if that person was very close and dear to your heart, how ur feelings just surfaced up and makes u feel an intense missing feeling for that person. how we use to work together and have fun sitting next to each other at work. how we went for break lunches and dinners together listening to songs blasting from our hps. how we would walk to my bike after work and tell me what a funky bike i had. how we went to the library and simply enjoyed each other presence. how we stay up talking. how i'll get surprised at work when i'm cleaning the coffee machine. and how we would sit in the middle of the padang just talking abt life. how we eat nice chicken rice and noodles and tong seng coffeeshop and apple strudel after that... a good fren. plesant personality. and great company in times of endless talking. well sometimes like the season, ppl go. and there's nothing i can do about it.

my rose-tinted glasses are down. and i'm back with a vengance and a fantastic plan. i have a dream. a goal. and i will accomplish every single inch of it. noone's gonna tell me otherwise, and even if you do, i'll ignore you. cos this time i have made up my mind, and nothings gonna stop me now. I will fight for it no matter how tough it'll be. and i will not let the trivial emotional distractions to affect me. i know what i gotta do. and i will do it.

till then,
i dare to dream.