Life's Good

"I don't dwell in the past; I don't wallow in old events and emotions. I don't waste time on regret. No use going over and over the details of what already happened."

that is my qoute of the week.

i dun wanna do things anymore for the sake of doing them anymore. i wanna do things that make me happy, and shift the focus onto ME. i got so much to do, including my presentation to my team on friday.. man i gotta prepare that and give it my best shot. I've done so much this couple of weeks, including impressing my boss enough for her to assign me an entire task, and there's no frigging way am i gonna screw this. and i went back to work at cafe, and everyone's been saying i lost so much weight. geezs, i dun think so but everyone's been saying that, so ok. i might as well maintain it!

last sat and sun felt like a hammer had hit me ten times on the head and i woke up to a wall of bricks. my days unfolded with me reminiscing abt e past and thinking of "if onlys". but i remember the very long talk i had with daphne abt my life. and she said so many things to make me realize. she's a great fren, apart from my dear christine and my best younger sis astrid. i dunnoe what the hell am i gonna do without chris and daph once they leave for aussie.. i so wanna pack my bags and leave w them!!! but i cant. i have to dedicate myself to my new jobbie and give it my best shot so that i can get good references once i'm done.

its time i did a list of things i wanna accomplish. it'll keep my focus on, and keep me from staggering behind where all the shi* past lays.. back to my qoute: "I don't dwell in the past; I don't wallow in old events and emotions. I don't waste time on regret. No use going over and over the details of what already happened." this qoute is amazing. it lifts up my down spirit. i know i can do it and i will! just wait and see, the new me is evolving. rite now still in the caterpillar stage, maybe entering the cacoon stage soon. but when i become a butterfly, i'll be the most beautiful butterfly..

i dun need to hang ard ppl just for the sake of it. heck if i have a great family, great frens and a great job, who needs this other ppl. they have their lives and i have mine. and other ppl have it going on for them, why should i be the exceptional case.. i love my life despite my downs. but thats life isnt it? its full of ups and downs..

i was reading His word last nite, and this quote made me feel immediately at ease. bcos this whole week, i've been missing something. something important.. then it hit me. i have no faith! i have no faith or maybe i'm being double-minded.. but i got it now. and i'm gonna focus on that.

"Faith is to be sure of the things hoped for, to be certain of the things we cannot see." Hebrews 10:11. i read so much abt having faith this week. that my suffering is just a test. and i wanna believe in this, cos apart from me, He is all i got.

so grad's today. hopefully it'll turn out well. what am i saying? of cos it will turn out well, gonna meet my frens and go up on stage! and daphne's giving her speech, i'll cheer all out for her.. so dun bug me today. cos clarissa ginger goh is out! Lalalalalalalalala (: