Follow Through - Gavin Degraw

"So, since you wanna be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through"

i was supposed to sleep at 8pm and get up at 1am to study for my genetics mid sem exam tmr, but something was keeping me up, the more i tried to force myself to sleep, the more active my mind was. i just kept thinking of everything. him. his smile. his hugs and kisses. his love for me. his patience. his deterrence. his loving nature. how i got so lucky. i used to think i was meant to be single. i was either too independent for normal guys, or too emotional. its always a case of something that doesn't complement something. i admired all my friends in long term relationships, and i always got out of it quick. i thought if i studied hard enough, and not be with anyone, somehow life will be fine. but then i met him. i guess he changed my perspective a bit, cos being with him was like being someone new. i was still myself, but i was someone new at the same time. he made me feel like i could be happy, and not be worried that it was a fake kind of happiness. there's something about him that has drawn me since the beginning, and that same thing is making me want to remain as close and as loved by him. i think about coming back in 3 days time. 7 months since i was gone from spore. how really time flies. he's been working so hard even though he's going into police soon, and his reason is so simple yet so deep. he just wants me to enjoy every single day when i am back. he wants to relive all our old memories, eat and have fun everywhere without us worrying about finances. he tells me, ur a student now, let me be the one to support u. its so cute. even when we're so young into our relationship, he wants to support me. he is just amazing. and i am so lucky to have him by my side always. we're gonna be celebrating our 1 year anniversary in advance. we'll be 2 weeks early, but its ok. i just love how we have known each other for 2 years now, and we've been together for a year. it gets better every single day. he's everything to me, and one day we will be able to do all those things together. esp our asia backpacking trip after my studies and after his army. ill be back in spore for his POP. my baby boy being a police man. HOT STUFF. haha i love teasing him... just like how i thought love wasn't for me, i think i was too blind with everyone else to realize the real one that has always been right there in front of me.

love u babe, see u soon. (: