Fallen - Sarah Mclachlan

*fallen for you since 27o9o7*

so he's coming on the 23rd of june, 4 days b4 my 21st as if everyone din know already... and well, thats like the day before my chemistry paper and 2 days before my genetics paper.. thats gonna be very interesting how i intend to study... hmmm... after not seeing each other for exactly 3 months. man, i din even know i could have lasted tat long, not being with someone for 3 months is super-aching and sometimes feel like ten bricks are on my heart but i get over it, i try not to think too much abt it, and well, who ever invented webcams, ur a genius and i love you whichever grave ur sleeping at rite now! :D

exam preparations has been going relatively well.. not too much, not too little, and i try to not be some psycho freak and study every waking moment like how i did for my o's. im still working too, so time management is very very impt for me rite now.

just like the sad times tat came, the good times followed by very fast.. all i needed was to be patient. its amazing how u always feel like tats the worse u can ever possibly feel and think u'll never get up from it, but then u always do, somehow. its just a matter of patience. it'll all subside eventually and like what astrid always tell me, its about self motivation and thinking positive always. nothing is always as bad as it seems, and what ur going thru, someone else is always having it worse then u. so appreciate what u have always.

i thought alot alot since i got here, feel like im truly growing up, and so many immature things tat used to bother me just dun seem to bother me tat much anymore. like fame, boys, popularity, money bla bla bla, which every girl my age seem to be chasing, but when u leave home and strike out on ur own, u realize ur potential and discover who u truly are in the process. just like naby and i, we both left spore together, she to dubai as an emirates air stewardess and me to perth for my uni studies. i met her when she had a one day stopover in perth, and i always always seem to be thinking alot after meeting her. shes so insightful and has a realistic and very real outlook on life. how she tells me that as an air stewardess its really abt big bucks and sleeping ard with every other guy, but i respect her for not even becoming close to being like tat. she doesnt wanna earn so much money and feel helpless with it.

likewise for me i dun wanna study my brains out and let my studies be the only thing to rule my life, and end up feeling exhausted and so missed out on what life is truly abt. its not abt success or money or status. its not whether i am the top student or not. its just abt being happy where u are, and not being envious of things u dont have, cos sometimes u have more, sometimes others have more. but for every good thing that ppl have, thats always one bad thing that compensates for it. noone has got it perfect. i dun regret any actions too, cos its all this suffering and hardship tat makes me a better person at the end of the day. i study hard but i also know i am in perth and if i dun enjoy being in another ctry now, when will i get this opportunity again?

life is something we all have to go thru no matter how good or bad, but humans are just humans, and we can only do our best for everything, hope for the best and have faith tat everything has its way of working out. Never stop believing who you are and learn to always do the best with what u have. Love who u are. Life is life, no matter how u look at it. Be happy and things will work out by itself.