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its funny how being in a new environment and place robs you of your acknowledgments of the little intricacies in life, how we overlook all the smallest details because we were too busy accomplishing something bigger and better for God knows what. how we tend to pretend that nothing good is happening when actually everything GREAT is happening... yup, thats how i can describe my 2 months here.. i have my bad days where i wake up in the middle of the night and for a split minute i look at my surroundings wondering where on earth am i, then i have to remind myself i am in MY room at aussie.. I never had my own room. got used to sharing it with my sisters back home. feels weird sometimes waking up to nothing but the silence of your room, and the windows that creak outside... the winds here get pretty mean at night, and i dont have a fan, so i open them slightly, that makes the wind bang my windows at night...

apart from that, everything is very well and good. to madaa, yes i am good. to anyone else thats wondering i am good. i wont say GREAT cos i mean i gotta study.... and work... and i am not complaining but ya i do miss my charmed life in spore. now i say charmed... haha. the irony of it all.. but ya, i actually feel myself developing and evolving to this big girl, making big girl decisions and man i actually could control my shopping desire and needs, all it takes is some self psychoing. i'm amazed that when i open my cupboard and see so little clothes in it, i dont cringe and put SHOPPING on my to-do list. i just smile at how "rich" i was in spore. truly took that for granted... now when ur here all alone, u know u gotta save like a shrimp. but the best part about leaving alone?

I GET TO DO WHAT I WANT.

absolutely! and i LOVE grocery shopping, makes me feel all important although i am only shopping for myself but still! it takes a lot of BIG decision making when u stand at that aisle and look at all the neatly stocked items all the way to the end, then u gotta compare prices, see how much is it per kg, most of the time buying in bulks is cheaper, but man i can never finish that much food... but i still buy the cheaper bulks anyway. haha. i love cooking too! despite the whole inconvenience of having to chop chop stuff and wash after that, its fun deciding what to cook at night... my chicken wings are defrosting at the moment, gonna cook honey chicken wings and frying some oyster sauce veges... Mmmmm... HUNGRY...

schools not so bitchy now.. i mean chem's still a bitch, but its ok cos i only got 7 more frigging weeks of it before its done and over with!!! its hard studying at a uni here, content wise its so much to study in such a short period of time!!! i mean seriously, these aussies have really got it going, some of them drink like no tomorrow and still can ask smart questions on class! weird... or maybe i'm too nerdy. haha. ya i'm a complete nerd compared to these fellas here... haha. i love my uni life, its fun and exhilarating and as u walk down to class, ur like hey... i'm in uni. and that just makes my day anytime.. my exams are in 7 weeks.. whoo... i've been studying hard enough i think. haha. we'll see...

as for friends... ya i just got back from a 3 day camping trip actually. joined a club in school, u know to get my resume flying. but i actually enjoy this club and made heaps of friends including very down to earth locals. the camp was exhausting and i gave it my best, it being a leadership camp. ya sounds boring but actually it wasnt! i made so many friends, and i love the aussie culture.. i did my virgin skulling! haha that was fun, racing to see who can drink down their pint of beer fastest.. i was pretty slow haha but it was worth the experience. all shouting and screaming for u to drink it down faster, haha that was a good memory. and the 2 parties i went for, ya it wasnt in a club and we were at some campsite, but we improvised. and i think i did well for my alphabet party where we had to come in anything that starts with the first letter of our name. i came as a cat, meow! i din have any costumes or props so i made do with my make-up skills haha. i dont have pics now but when i do i'll post it here.. the 2nd party was a graffiti party where everyone wrote something on the top u were wearing. that was fun too, brought back primary school memories.. haha. i really enjoyed myself at the camp, providing it was during study break and i was suppose to be studying, but ya i got sick of constantly studying so i took the plunge and went out for a 3 day camp. haha. extreme i know. but ya i had a lot a lot of fun, and i love my new frens who are mostly from curtin uni... met these 3 indo guys who were so damn funny, met so many cool chics, really respectable, met some monkeys who just went crazy at the party. but it was heaps cool!

my housemate's cool... i mean she's also named claire, haha, all the claires i know rock! haha, alright but ya its a nice homely place... dont feel so unhomely here.. and she doesnt bug me that much so thats cool.. her bf is here often but he's cool too. so yup we're all cool!

i've been trying to find more part time work cos my kumon pay isnt gonna help much... yup but i've got an interview tmr!! hooray! haha. ya i miss my simple life in spore...

my bf and me are good too.. he's been very supportive about my meltdown moments, he's there for me and he puts me above everything else. what more could a girl ask for right? and i just found out his enlistment today and i am very very happy! he's got into police!! yeah! policemen rocks! ok my policeman rocks! yeah that means i dont have to face all that camping crap and no booking out crap bla bla bla... and he's gonna look mighty handsome and fine in that smart blue uni... cant wait. haha..

yup, so basically i'm good. i mean like i said earlier, i hate those mother f&^%^*) days but ya i get along fine with everything else. i love my student life, making the best of it, studying hard and playing harder. haha. my club's called AIESEC btw and its a really awesome club which organises student exchanges and does all those leadership things. the people there are nothing but smart, intellectual and very very on the ball. just my kind. (: and i've met so many people from different countries, now i really do feel my overseas experience.. and i am hoping for many more exciting times to come..

naby astrid and fiqah have all decided to pop by at the same time.. man, haha. gonna be busy busy busy.. but of cos the cherry on top the regular cherry of my super triple choc sundae is him coming over in june to celebrate my 21st with me... he booked his tickets today but he wont tell me when he's coming.. wants to surprise me.. so sweet.. cant wait for that.. ((:

and now i guess thats about it. I AM HUNGRY!!! my chicken's cooking now and i gotta study after tat. got 2 major major tests this friday. but its my fav subject, molecular biology so no problemo! the other day, the twins from my aunts gave me a call.. din realise how much i miss their blabbering to me about school.. cute ten yr olds.. i miss them. think i will visit my aunt this sunday... (:

i am happy. for now. but i will hold on to this happiness till as long as i can.
i am here right now, and its up to me and me alone to make this the best experience ever or the worse. I am very very contented with what i have right now. even if he had to make me realize that, i'm glad i finally do. he has been so nice to me, even when i do all these crazy emotional shit but he's still there for me through everything. and how we need to get creative when we're talking on the phone... since thats all we can do now. ;)

MISS ASTRID LUISA GOH my baby sister......
and Juls. miss ya a whole lot. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIET. and i MISS SERI. haha.

alright thats a long enough update.. MUACKS everyone.. Thanks for listening. (: