Blessings and Thank You's

i wan to write an entry entirely dedicated to all the people that made my last few days in spore so wonderful and so surreal. i had so much fun and so much appreciation and gratitude to all the people who put in the effort whether big or small, i am just so happy and i feel so fortunate and so grateful. i wan this entry to remind me how much i am loved, how much i mean to people and how much i was remembered and cared for. for anyone who cant stand sentimental and touching and EXTREMELY long stuff, u can skip this entry. this entry is gonna be my uplifter, my motivation on days i feel bummed and unloved, on days i feel so alone, this entry will be there for me, cos it will contain all my memories, all the happy times. the people i named wont be in any order of favoritism, they'll just be named randomly as it comes to my mind, please forgive me if i forgot ur name, i am mighty forgetful.

1) my boss Dr Li Jing at SERI - she gave me a job for 1 year, developed my skills as a lab technician, and allowed me to flourish in my potential. i am grateful she gave me that opportunity. she bought me 2 cakes on my last day and told me it would be hard to find someone as good as me and that she'll definitely wished i could have stayed longer. she gave me a hug on my last day. (:

2) the best colleague, mentor, my best friend wu hong who was 15 years older then me, she could not speak a word of english when we first met, but by the time i left she could speak almost fluently with some chinese substitutions here and there. always popping up her phone to translate something or explain to me in drawings and sign language. hilarious those times, it was like playing sherades. she was from china, and i never met someone more compassionate, more patient, more considerate, more understanding and more friendly. she taught me a lot abt life, love and growing up. she's my best friend. i will never forget our times in the lab, she made it easy to come to work, and we make an excellent team. i look forward to visiting her in china one day and working with her again. will always rem u...

3) my other lab colleagues who bothered to treat me to a farewell lunch at ichiban boshi. pei yun, my love advisor and in-your-face advisor man this girl was opinionated and straightforward like hell. but i think its great she doesnt hide anything. to en nan who's a quiet as a mouse, but who help me in my work unconditionally without expecting anything in return. she's sweet like a pie. to yi xin, we had the most in common, but she and i did not have many opportunities to talk since she wasnt directly under SERI. but when we did get to talk, it'll be non-stop. there was definitely a friendship there, a close one, and she was so sweet to have gotten me a farewell gift. (: love the shirts. to anabelle. only got to know her on my last few days at work but she's one heck of a fun-ball, she's so fun and talkative and extremely great to hang out with. if she came earlier, we too would have created havoc in the lab. (:

4) Singapore Art Cafe! Jonathan and Chloe. My previous bosses... they were more then amazing to me, my friends, esp jon whom i got a lot of advice from in terms of school and future work. the times we stayed back late in the cafe, just talking, the times we jammed when i sang on stage, the funtimes we had during working. the rest of the crew, helen, jimmy, naby, yeebee, wani, jeremy. it was the best batch in sac. all those cute music guys man, how i used to tell jon and he'll shake his head and go 'claire.... so many guys' and i'll be like 'what its not wrong to look ok.... haha'. jamming sessions was super duper fun, the cafe was like my second home. i learnt how to cook, i loved cooking, cashiering and making coffee.. i love SAC for taking me in, esp during the hard times when i came in and cried, they were all there for me... noone turned their backs against me. (: SAC RULES. thank you jon and chloe and sac for my farewell party as long as naby's. i really had fun that day. (:

5) Shimada- thanks babe for bringing me out to sakae sushi and buying me such a lovely notebook... btw i have used it already and its gonna be my personal book. i will write anything in there including journals and memoirs. thank you so much for ur lovely gift, i hope u had fun too that day. u can depend on me anytime u need advice or just wanna talk... thanks girl.

6) nurul ain juliet - my buddy, my bestie since i was 15 years old. u have been so understanding and so sweet to me. thanks for the fish & co treat... i know i have been busy and i couldnt meet u so often, but u know we too always have each other in our hearts no matter what. i am just so happy for u now that ur doing so well, and being so matured and sensible, not that u werent before, but i am just glad for u. we will keep in touch babe. thank you for all those nites i went over ur house, for cooking sambal chicken for me, for being there in those really crucial times... u were my rock.

7) nurul ain (peirce) - thanks girl for finally meeting up w me, it was fun riding u ard on my bike, and i totally enjoyed our outing that day where we shared our dreams and aspirations... we had 4 years of good fun in peirce, esp when you ditched higher malay class and i ditched basic malay class and we went to have prata and play golf at leonard's house... haha. i wish i met u more... but its ok i am very happy i at least got to see u before i leave... will keep in touch and thanks for ur 5% discount! (:

8) Dr Lim Kah Meng - my teacher from TP. thanks for meeting up with me and inspiring me so much to make it big one day... u'll always be my inspiration and my mentor. i will look forward to working with u one day.

9) Sharifah mun - hey although we never got to meet up after our bkk trip but i remain true to my word, u have been an excellent dependable friend to me, its crazy we know each other since childhood, but only contacted again from salid. ironic but very very good. i really still rem every single word u advised me in bkk, and i will never forget how u were there for me during my hardest time... and all those msn chats we kept in touch with.... its was better then nothing... all the best w salid, and dun forget wedding invitations!!!!

10) Daphne and Christine - Need i say more? My best best poly buds who were with me thru all the shiat. will never forget how u two cared and help me out of all that... Cant wait to reunite again in UWA! (:

and now the best for the last:

11) Mum and Bruce - without ur help i would not even be leaving to aussie. to mum, u made it happen, u believed in me, u sacrificed just to pay for me, u din have enough to spare but u still did it for me. i asked for international school, not a private in spore which u could comfortably afford, but i wanted an international education. i waited patiently for 4 years before u said ok. and even so i had to source out ways u could afford it but u kept ur word. when i found a suitable plan, u looked into it, worked it out and gave me that opportunity i will never never forget. even after paying for my school fees, my visa, my health cover, my insurance, my air ticket, u still bought me all the other things like stationary, toiletries, winter wear and even bought me a spanking boots and a beautiful winter jacket from new york on ur holiday... mum, thank you for everything. i will pay u back one day, get a good job, be a better person only becos u loved me so much... and sacrificed so much even when dad left us, u remain strong for all of us and now ur supporting me leaving spore to carve out my career niche. thank you bruce for believing in me as well, for coming up with the amount of money even though i am not ur biological daughter.... thank you. thank you astrid for all ur support as my younger sister, i will miss you like crazy. thank you darren for the talk you gave me that nite. thank you kim for the woolen shawl u got me for xmas.

12) Aunty Branka - thank you for giving me the accomodation so that mum can afford for me to go... it means so much to us, to me. your kindness to mum and me, i will never forget. thank you for making it happen.

13) the love of my life, my companion, my best friend, my soulmate - muhammad firdaus bin mohammad hashim - your love, your support, your presence, you being in my life was surreal. it was magical, it was unconditional, it was genuine. thank you for making the last 5 months so so happy, you've made me happier then anyone who's been with me, you showed me love so genuine and true, that it surpassed all my negative impression about love. you made me feel it was ok to be unique and different. you loved me for who i am, you accepted all my flaws and even said i was cute when i'm angry. you believed in me when no other guy did. you truly was happy for me when i could finally go, you supported me in every choice i make in every decision i made. you never once judge me or thought negatively about me. you trusted me, loved me, and accepted me. you allowed the love between us to flourish into depths and regions i never knew existed. eventhough sometimes i dun say much, i am appreciating every single action and bit you have done for me. i know during my last few days i have not been very understanding towards you when u kept quiet. u miss me, but i thought u din. i said things to u which i know hurt you like hell, but u never once brought it up. you buy ice cream for me from island creamery, our first official date, second non-official date. i will never forget the place, we first held hands fully and we admitted our feelings to each other there. you cook with me, our aglio olio apple crumble sessions. we have so much fun doing simple things. we love out simple relationship. we love doing nothing. we love talking. we love sampling music together. i know i forgot our outing to sgoon garden and i am sorry. i know how much u were looking forward to it, but i completely forgot. i am sorry. i know i have been so busy packing i din even have time to realise you were there... i'm sorry i din spend more time w u and i am sorry u have to rush ur project this week when i am leaving... i know how much u missed me cos astrid told me everything about your talk with her.... i love you so much and it hurts like hell i have to leave when love is finally working out for me. i am so so happy our friendship turned out so beautifully as a couple. i am so grateful for comfort for letting us meet. thank you for all you've done for me. for spending on me eventhough u urself dun have much, for listening to all my woes, for just hugging me when i cry, for always kissing my forehead and tucking my hair behind my ears... if i havent said how much i missed and loved you these few days i am sorry. i wouldnt want anything more then to be with you everyday, wake up next to you in your arms, hold you close till i can hear your heartbeat race, smell your scent, and have your lips on mine... you mean the world to me, and i will always always love you....

thank you everyone.