Love Life

the wind yesterday and today is simply remarkable. if time would let me, i'd want to get a mat, find a huge quiet open green space and just meditate. i wanna close my eyes, and clear my mind and release any negative emotions and breathe in all the goodness.. there'll be so much to clear and so much to breathe in. (maybe i'll got to Bt Timah this sunday)

this yr has gone by even quicker then i can possible imagine. it was definitely an eventful and a super-duper rocky year. i've had my fair share of bad and good together. i had to go through the multitudes of extreme feelings. i went through the worst, and the best at the same time. right from the beginning of this year, so many things happened. and i really feel very intense about it. 2007 will definitely be a year i wont forget.

i graduated from my 3 yr biotech diploma, which i was so adamant on dropping out in the beginning, but i stayed on and managed to closely reach what i decided to set out for. so close. but its ok, at least i stayed on. And i'm never more proud of my final yr project. my 2 yr relationship ended. and i went through hell going through the break up. but i did it. i stayed on and i survived. i came out stronger, better, and more in control of my life. The close friends i made when they were there for me in my darkest moments. when i wanted to just give up everything, they made me go on with my life, and made me realized that there is more to life then a break up. My family and i got closer. Esp mum and i. and i got hired at my first full time research job. i got into stem cell research (my dream). and i got my name published in my first scientific medical journal. and now, i finally get to achieve my life long dream of pursuing my studies in Australia. My bachelor degree of Science in Molecular Biology and Biotechnology.

but the most, most best thing this year, was meeting him. though i hadnt planned to be with anyone for a long long time due to all the hurt i went through, he came along, and made me feel ready to move on and accept life's mishaps. though i feel i pulled out of it myself, but he just made it all more worth it.

i do not regret anything that happened, and i finally can say i am glad, truly glad all that has happened, happened. i am eternally grateful for all my mishaps, cos i would never be this great and fantastic if not for it.

Its really truly amazing how everything, always, and i mean always work out in the end. I know i have God's angels looking after me. I know i can trust Him when i go through bad times. Cos everything happens for a reason, and it wont happen unless its for the best.

I have nothing less to say that i thoroughly enjoyed this year with my sincerest of intentions and with my most viable and vivid memories that will always be with me. I dont feel so scared about going through life's mishaps anymore, because now, whatever hardship i have to go through, i know i have that inner strength, that inner side of me that will come out and be strong. That inner survival instincts. That do or die self. That move on or seep back in self. That character. I never knew i had this side of me. I suppose it comes out only in your darkest moments, and i am sure glad this side of me came out.

Thank you 2007. For those who directly and indirectly was involved in making 2007 a fantastic yr. I feel nothing more than appreciation and gratefulness.

*hoora, my boss just walked in and asked for yesterday's results. she was very happy with my results, she actually said good work. And she was very glad with my sales decisions i made yesterday when i spoke to the sales rep. life just gets better and better. *

i also realized, that if you've decided to be happy in your heart already, when life is good its just a bonus. because if you've decided to be happy inside your heart already, you wont need happy moments to make you feel happy. Happy moments just make you feel happier. I'm glad, so glad i no longer depend on life to be good to be happy. I'm happy as it is. (: