Savage Garden- Crash and Burn

this pic sums it all. dinner with "the boys". and the night that seemed too perfect to end. i wouldnt ask for anything more. 6102007. XXX

this week has been nothing short of magical. its a week that has been so promising and fulfilling and has generated feelings from places i never even knew existed. sometimes we dont have to look too far or too hard, loves comes knocking when u least expect it to.

in the past, i would shudder at the possibility of being this happy, cos i wouldnt want to fear it coming to an end. but that was then. when i did not have trust, when i felt it was better expecting the worst, so when it happens i wouldnt feel as bad. but unfortunately it was a bad plan. right from the start, so i decided i need to change my plan. i realised its not about finding that perfect someone, its about being that perfect someone. everyone has his/her own flaws. and its naive to think that that perfect person exists whereby the feelings generated would then be perfect. but its the imperfection in something that makes it perfect. cos only imperfections will make u realise how perfect that someone actually is. and if i wanted to sit back and wait for my prince charming to come rescue me where i would fall head over heels with him, my name would be cinderella, snow white, rapunzel or whatever. but i dun belong in a fantasy world, and when that special person i know happens to knock on my door, its gonna take effort. truckloads of effort to make it work, cos feelings will eventually fade. and the true test of love is when your love for each other exceeds your need for each other. when u truly want to work out with someone the differences that hangs over each other, thats when u know u truly love someone.

my journey is still a long and winding road. but i have a different mindset now. and as long as i believe i can do it, i can achieve it. life is life and once u understand what life is all about, everything else just falls in place. to me life is just like a combination lock, i just have to get the right numbers in the right combination and life will naturally unfold itself. its how we perceive it, if we can think of all the great and magical things in life, life can be great and amazing. and all my troubles and problems were just opportunities in disguise. if we pray to be strong, life wont make us strong, life gives us opportunities to be strong. i'm just glad i am gonna try. cos if we dont try, we'll never know right?