Michael Buble- Home

lets face the sad sad truth about life. money makes the world go round. as much as we hate to admit it, as much as i wanna sound noble and magnaminous, lets face it, without money, its almost inevitably impossible to do anything. as much as i wanna believe all those things that money cant buy happiness, money cant buy love etc, but money does facilitate those processes in a horrible but sad realistic way. and we're sucked into this endless chase of money as we all kneel down to the new religion. Greed. how far can we really go without money. not very far.. that i know. cos even if ur freaking einstein smart, ok maybe the nobel prize is a good bet. but other then tat, well nothing much can be earned without money. so what if u get accepted into a state uni. so what if u can get a year exemption. so what if ur the only one in the family to get into a uni. lets face it, maybe my dream is just a bunch of ashes. that'll get blown away as easy as the wind.

all i ever wanted, ever dreamed of, all i even dared to think of. i really am loss for words. maybe i'm being melodramatic. maybe i just am being impatient. but its not like i'm getting any younger.. and who knows what will happen in the future. maybe this is my test, this has been the test all along. as to whether i can put down what i've been dreaming of for so long. maybe it just wasnt meant to be. even if the loan is accepted, how much does that help? i still have so many other things to consider. and at the same time, i have to do well cos without honours, u wasted ur time studying for ur degree... well i'm not that smart to get a fully paid scholarship and i'm not that rich to go there without selling my kidneys. i do feel the sting now, cos i feel like i've worn out every possible option... its either i wait 2-3 years and study or i dun study anymore... i dunnoe which is worse.

its hard to describe how much i've yearn for this, and have it so near my face but yet so far is excruciating, emotionally. i expect too much, i never have no for an answer. sometimes this driven spirit in me can either be a blessing or a burden. and i dunnoe sometimes if thats good or bad. maybe this time ard, i'm being too selfish. maybe i just need to look at the bigger picture. maybe i have a solution which just isnt obvious to me.. as much as i wanna remain positive, its hard when the more u persist, the more negative it gets. its like a chain reaction. and i can count the amount of hurdles i have to jump over, but still i feel this intense urge to go and do what i always wanted to do.. i just never knew what i had to step on to get what i want. they always say go all out for the thing u want, but noone mention the amount of innocent feet u will thread on, and the treacherous journey continues. do what u want, or do what u should. i wish i knew.