People come and go. Its part of life.

So am finally free to sit down and give a nice update. Work has been madness, super busy. Have been preparing everything for my boss and reorganizing the lab and stuff. Its been really hectic but definitely satisfying and very accomplished. My boss has been on a 3 week leave but guess since i dun get any pressure from her, i've just been busy doing my best in everything i can.

I just sent christine off today. was really sad cos i truly felt like i was losing my best fren. the only one who stuck by me thru everything, including hearing my heart break first hand. She saw me for who i was without passing any judgement or even once backstabbing me or using me for anything. she just simply knew me and accepted me for who i am. I just feel so sad, its like everything is leaving or have left but i'm still here. But its ok. Cos i know i'm still here cos i have BIGGER and BETTER plans. i cant go the route i want, enter uni straight away. I gotta work first cos i know that this job will equip me with the experience i need if i continue in science and if not, its gonna be something that teaches me the generic things like discipline, responsibility and caring for others. I know i have it all planned out. and i finally finally know what i wanna do with my future. Thinking about the prospects alone makes me wanna jump out of my skin and scream yes! I know this is what i wanna do, and i know i just gotta have patience and perseverance. Gimme 10 years. i will be back with my dreams fulfilled right to the last drop. Sighs, but till then, really sad chris have left... at least daph is still here. but it'll never be the same again without chris. I just hope she'll fit in well and will pray every nite that she's safe there.

Everything for me has still been going great. I knew letting go of the past was hard. But i surprised myself and surpassed all my expectations. I did what i thought was impossible. But i just proved to myself, that if you really wanna do something, u just gotta stay focus and constantly believe in yourself. U just never know. Cos when one door closes, another always opens. But we just sometimes focus too long on that closed door that we fail to notice the opened door. Dont be afraid to step out of your comfort zone and do what ur heart and souls tells u to do. U may feel lost and stupid at first. but just persevere and u'll be surprised. I know i was.

Life has never been happier for me. For now. Just happy i got someone to share everything with. My dreams, my problems, my tears, heartache, my happiness, my frustration... He's just one of the sweetest guys i have met in my life. Thougthful, caring, understanding and very very attentive and a great listener. He's not judgemental as well and doesnt expect much from me but yet gives me that trust and faith. He's a great great person to be with. But still, my heart isnt ready. I'm just appreciating his presence, dun need anything more then that. But i've been happy. really happy. and i never felt more free in my life. He understands me. and i can tell him anything in the world. The distance apart does make me appreciate him more as well. and i have been testing all the things i meant to change with him. I've been doing well. and i have definitely made it. (:

right now i am really happy and excited about the dreams and my future plans. I cant wait to live my dream. I never wanted something as much as i wanted this. I know i'll go all the way, and there's no turning back cos i have decided on it. And nothing will stop me till i get it. Clinical Psychology, here i come.