You have stolen my heart

hey everyone, i'm just so happy. i just feel so accomplished. like i've done so much to make me feel so proud of myself. i have developed an inner strength so strong, noone can take that away from me. i feel so satisfied with everything now. and i just feel so happy being me. this past 2 mths has been the most glorious for me. i've discovered, learned, loved and forgave. i've been through it, i've seen through it, i have focused on my energy, i have done well.

met anonymous yesterday nite for supper at JB. i slept almost the entire afternoon, the first rest i had since grad day almost 3 weeks ago. i had a nice time going to 'singgah selalu' which translates to 'drop by always'. we ordered food food (my term for many side dishes and rice) and just sat there enjoying each other's company just talking and chilling. he's a nice guy, haha i seem to be saying that alot. been going out with all the nice guys. maybe its me, nvr noticed there were so many nice guys ard cos i was stuck w one whom i wont consider nice. but i guess thats human nature, u tend to overlook what really matters to u just cos ur so fixated on things not so impt to u. life is so fragile and unpredictable, one should always be happy and not worry so much. people enter ur life for a reason, and things always happen for a reason...

today was great, woke up at 4 pm, haha i know its damn late, but this is my first real good sleep. then went blading with my folks and my younger sis, then took my dad out for fathers day at fish and co. was real nice, just spending quality time with my family... after that met my old fren, went down to jln kayu mad jacks and who knows, i bumped into my real childhood frens.. it was so nice bumping into them, brought all the familiarity of childhood innocence. i knew them when i was like 7 years old back in seletar camp days where we did so many things, played rounders, decorate the xmas trees, go under drains and explore, playing soccer and hide and seek. haha those were the days... was real nice meeting my childhood frens and my old fren. just simply enjoying all thats here now.. my life is getting better by the day, and everyday brings more and more. i just look forward to every single day of my life.

i've been talking alot abt the big move to aussie. i just know that my fam will be happy there, mum will be happy there, and i can further my studies in the unis there. its a fresh start, and i just feel so excited abt the prospects and the goodness of it all. i cant wait to go. i've prolly got less then 6 mths more here, i just wanna meet up with as many ppl as possible and do as much as i can before i leave. now my entire focus and mentality on life has changed. having a guy is no longer my first priority. i just love being with my frens, family and so excited abt my future career...

my old childhood frens i havent seen them for abt 10 years? but they still rem me, they said i looked different but they still know i've got the same character... one of them said, from last time i know u, u are one person who wants something means u must have it. u go all out for what u want, very determined and demanding. haha. i'm still like that even after 10 years... i strive to do my best in everything i do, and i dun take no for an answer. it has gotten me to many places, i've done so much, but at times its more of a curse then a blessing cos i end up expecting too much and i get easily hurt and demoralised. but on the good side, i always achieve what i strived out to do. i nvr give up unless i get what i want.

just feel so peaceful, so positive in life and so strong after all that has happened. i know myself so much better now and i dun get affected by the little things as much anymore. i'm just really happy now. couldnt ask fer anything more. missing him too. waited the whole day just to talk 15 mins w him. oh wells, we'll see what happens over the months. all i can say is that i am contented and satisfied. another 24 hrs till i hear his voice again. hope he's fine and happy inside.. cant wait for my bday party. and cant wait till his first book out. (:

nite peeps, smile always cos u nvr know who might be falling in love with ur smile. there's so much in this world worth smiling for and worth living for. nvr give up the things u believe in and always cherish what you got. life has its wonders, u just gotta go though the bad before u can appreciate the good..