In Him I Believe

I met up with one of my closest frens today, meeting her again after so long was a real nice feeling. frens like her come a long way, and whenever i meet her, i just feel like im touching base again, coming back to Earth again, cos we both have so many real things to talk abt, not superficial things, and i appreciate having a fren like her to show me the real things in life, stuff that she can assure me with cos of the faith she has in God. I admire her spirituality, her sense of well-being and her sense of holistic ways, like how she believes so much in everything He has provided in this world, when everything is so chaotic, when sometimes, nothing in the world means more to me than knowing He will always be there no matter what. I love this friendship of mine with her so much, cos each time i meet her, we share openly about our spiritual side, and i love hearing all the things she has to say. it comforts me knowing that everyone out there no matter how 'successful' or 'happy' they seem, everyone needs to know they can have someone to depend on, even if they cant see it. we all need some kind of sanity to keep us grounded in this insane world. and faith in His grace and blessings brings us back down to Earth, He makes us see that not all things can be given rite away, some things have to be asked for, for He is always waiting for us like how a parent awaits a child to come home.

somethings in life, is so so vast, so beyond our own human comprehension, somethings are so beyond the beyond, that only God's work can sustain it, only God's blessings can make it bearable. when all else is failing, one thing that doesnt fail is His love for us, for His people. This Christmas, and New Years, i want to start reshaping the way i have always done things, whether im doing them becos i want to, or whether im doing them so I can make Him happy, who only wants me happy. I want to do things not for me anymore, I hope i can do things differently and be a better person for me and for the people ard me, and especially for Him.

so many things in life is beyond my control, but decisions and actions i take is within my control, making the right decisions is crucial, cos any decision you make, u have to live with its consequences. I may not have made many right decisions in my life.. maybe I just need to refocus everything. why is it so important to have someone in my life, i dunnow maybe i crave for companionship. but am i searching for it wrongly?

*to justina. (: thanks girl. u opened up my eyes and mind just when i needed it.*