as if time and distance wasnt hard enough, everything else has to be harder. sometimes i wonder why do i even bother, as if God wants me to see its not meant to be. Just like the money wheel i played at the casino last nite, couldnt help but notice the resemblance to life, how the wheel just spins around, you get excited for a while, and when it stops, u either win or lose. thats life, its just a gamble with temporary happiness.

im at the crossroads once again. should i follow or not? i cant decide, and i just am so tired.

i hate playing games.
i hate losing.
and i hate how helpless i feel being here.
maybe it might be better if i did this alone. knowing than at least i got nothing to lose.
limitless boundaries, when will it stop?
i wish i knew how they do it, and why i cant.

one day i might figure it out, but for now i just wanna sleep...