Where You Lead I Will Follow - Carole King & Louise Goffin

its been a really extremely fast fast faster then fast week for me. i was bitching about my week initially cos i had mountain piles of work to do before i leave. but i din realize that all that work doing fast-forwarded my already-very-fast time. so now i am bitching about time passing too fast. typical girl rite? when time is slow i complain, when its fast i also complain.. haha i treat sweets exactly the same way sometimes. think he gets really confused, but its ok, I'm the girl, he's the guy. (: and I'm sure sweets doesn't mind, cos he loves me that much. (:

boy did i have a super lazy weekend. i had to rush so many things last week, i just wanted things to be extra slooooooooow on the weekend. i came home early on fri, and stayed home on sat and sun. the weather was so dreamy, and so snuggly, i just had to stay at home... and what else can i possibly do at home you ask?

well, catch up on gilmore girls and grey's anatomy of course! my happyplace.

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if i had a little part of me that could come out and metamorphosise into a mother, it would be telling me that its not good to watch 10 hours straight of gilmore girls and grey's anatomy and only stopping to make delicious home made apple crumble cos i had a craving for my own baking, chomping it down with nice cold vanilla ice cream tucked under my comforter... Mmmm... and continuing my show and stopping again only for dinner and its back to my tv. haha. my laptop is the best best thing ever! should have got it waaaayy sooner.

yup, so thats what i did. caught 10 hours of my fav sitcoms.. gonna complete season 3 of GG soon, and i can start on season 4 soon! GA is kinda slow cos i prefer GG anytime over GA. right now just at season 2. coolness.

you know when is a sure sure sign that ur watching too much GG and GA?

when u end up dreaming you've got a brain tumour and you cant wait for Dr Sheppard to operate on you. or when you dream that rory from GG vandalises things. which in the show its quite the opposite cos she's like a super goody goody two shoes! haha, dreaming about it... man.

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last nite as i was abt to fall asleep at 12.30am, i was thinking about work the next day. and i suddenly felt, oh my god, i left like 3 days and i will officially be job-free! after nearly 11 months of a full time 8.30-6pm mon-fri job at a lab, i am finally free! i was like, cant be, its not even 1st feb rite? and as i grabbed my phone and saw the date (4th feb), what! yup so thats how caught up i was last weekend, it totally din occur to me that feb has already begun...

man, that means i've got exactly 18 days now....

thats fast.
time really doesn't stop for no one.
like when i was watching GA last nite, this lady was saying, time, its like a carousel, you cant jump off it, and it will keep going round and round and round... that means time just goes on and on, we cant stop it or make it go slower...

i'm scared and excited at the same time. and when mum spoke to me again about studying hard and not letting it overcome my character, i just kinda snapped and cried, and she was like why are you crying, and i told her i felt pressured to study hard and be good at the same time, and she was like claire I don't expect you to be perfect, you're not God. and she went on to tell me that i have to put in just as much effort to nurture my character cos if i only study and have no character, people wont respect me and all...

i dunnoe, its just that her words are extremely accurate and so in your face, it just makes me have nothing to say or think about and i will cry to release my emotions. Time is ticking by.... And i have my days at Singapore slowly diminishing... I just hope i can follow everything i said i will do once I'm there... I will lead, and I will follow... I have to be strong for myself..