Dreams

part of being able to study psychology in the future is knowing about how dreams occur. according to wikipedia,

Dream is a word used to describe a subconscious experience of a sequence of images, sounds, ideas, emotions, or other sensations usually during sleep, especially REM sleep (Rapid Eye Movement) . The events of dreams are often impossible, or unlikely to occur, in physical reality: they are also outside the control of the dreamer.

So that sort of affirms the two hypothesis of dreams which is, 1) Dreams are normally due to what you are feeling in your subconscious mind and 2) They are opposite of reality, or they will not occur in reality.

Interpreting dreams is something that has always fazed me, mainly because i find it interesting that the mind can perceive even in an unconscious state. Dreams are there to protect us, or so call remind us of what we're facing in reality. And i hate to think that the thing i need to face in reality, does not allow me to be in control when it happens in my dreams (Unless i am lucidly dreaming). I hate that dreams can serve as an intruder into my private space. And the worst part i feel about dreaming, is that you are totally not in control. And i hate how certain things, i rather not be reminded about reminds me still. Has it really been in my subconscious mind this whole time? Have I just been cheating myself, short-changing myself? I thought time would heal everything, time does help. But whats the use of using time to forget, when u get reminded so vividly of the past in your dreams. And i tell myself I'm so done with it, so over everything. and yet it still manages to grab me.

As i wake up and push everything back into the dark realms of my heart, i ask myself, how long more. How much more?