The best days of my life

one week has passed, the last week for him before he goes in.

been heck busy like crazy meeting up w my peeps and him. this whole week was just fun beyond fun, fun to the maxes of the max. i just love my life rite now, my feelings are so solid and so happy. i just love my frens. Been really appreciating all the best times I’ve been having. Spending time with my frens has only reaffirmed what I already know. That I can survive on my own, and I dun need a man to make me feel worthy of myself. I never been happier, it’s like now I truly understand the saying “that everything happens for a reason” now. Things have been falling very nicely in place, my jigsaw puzzle is completing. My frens have made me realize I am who I am, and that’s why they love me for who I am. I too have evolved, appreciating all those who has been there for me, talking nicely to them and being so happy happy. I have not been moody or angry to anyone for so long now, I’ve just been so happy. This past 3 weeks since grad day I have been meeting up with ppl every single day. Haven’t been home as well, so kinda miss the quiet-ness of home. Miss watching Chinese drama shows, and miss disturbing my family and just being retarded. My fam too has been better then great. All’s doing well and so much anticipation of moving over to aussie. Bruce will be going over first to change his citizenship which will take like a day, then he’ll action action stay there and look for a property, get contacts etc, then once that is done, mum’s gonna sell the car and find a tenant for the hse and off we go!!! Sobs sobs gonna miss my peeps like hell. And local food… no more late nite supper-ing gluttoning out… Gonna miss spore art café and singing, jamming sessions... my dear frens, dunnoe what i'll do w/out them...

here's what i did this week:

Monday: i had a quiet day this monday, just went for supper with him and his frens at simpang bedok. i was already quite tired cos sat and sun combined only had abt 7 hrs sleep in total... ya i know i've been having so little sleep my dark rings are damn obvious. but i'm happy, and thats all that matters.

Tuesday: I went down to the cafe for seal's bday. it was so fun bcos i had my virgin debut performance! i sang inf of a huge crowd and hecj it felt so damn good. i was nervous like hell but i decided i shall sing a song for seal cos by now everyone's determined to hear me sing already cos they all think i can sing very well.. so when i went on stage to talk to dan, he started playing the tune for bizarre love triangle and i was like no dan and my face was registering shock, haha and before i knew it he had called jon on stage and jon was like round of applause for claire, this is her virgin performance! my god i nearly shat in my pants. haha was super super nervous, i dint even have the lyrics! but when i sang the first note the whole crowd cheered and i was like ok, dun screw up. haha.. i sang quite a bit and he was there, recorded the entire thing. i might be uploading it k guys. haha. after that i went to catch ocean's 13 with daph and her frens. its a damn good movie, despite not catching ocean's 11 and 12. but i enjoyed it alot. and brad pitt is ooh lala.. *drools* We all went for supper after that and daph was wearing a freaking short skirt but she wanted to ride my bike and I was like ok, we are gonna attract hell a lot of attention!

Wednesday: today i went down to cafe again cos marc's grp will be playing their showcase songs, these guys are freaking good, the singer is like as good as bon jovi when he sings the songs and ryan looked like wow when he played the guitar. tsk tsk haha. then i called my peeps down too so have some nachos and some cookies and cream m/s and some ice blended drinks. after listening to marc's grp play rock ballads, and it was so sweet of him to dedicate "bon jovi bed of roses" to me, we all headed to makan sutra... yum. we ordered loads of food all for the guys who were leaving for NS soon and for chris and daph who are leaving for aussie soon. i had so much fun laughing and sharing all the good food with them. haha then we headed to chijmes but decided to goof ard outside esplanade taking so many pics with the floating balls and making a fool of all ourselves. was plain innocent fun. i seriously dun rem being this happy in a long time. then when we reached chimes we went into some random pub ordered beer and daph and i as usual became our crazy selfs and went to dance like crazy. was so damn fun.

Thursday: Today was a quiet day cos was pretty shagged out from drinking and dancing the nite before and still going work at 9 am the next day. he was sweet to meet me for breakfast. we had half boiled eggs and kopi o at marina sq cos i left my bike there the previous nite so he met me to take mrt together, we had fun la eating the half boiled eggs. i just love it. =) then afterwards met him for dinner, had thai food. really really good thai food. and we sat there talking about all the things we have been doing the past weeks, all the funtimes we shared. We spoke abt the times we were spending togther and whats gonna happen next when he goes in etc. but was cool, all’s cool. Just gonna remain very very good frens for now. He understands. He doesn’t wanna drag me down too, and even asked me to keep my options open. I din promise him anything either. Just told him I will still go out with other guys, and he said ok. He’s so understanding and sweet. Now gotta wait till his confinement is over before I have a nice bday dinner with him and my peeps. we just recalled all the things we did and laughed at each other, and getting all emo already then we started our usual scolding each other vulgarities and started our insulting to each other. Haha. Say I fat all. Wait ah u just wait. 3 weeks later when u come out, we see who fatter ah! Stupid peanut butter and jelly. (:

i need to plan my birthday party list real soon! ok random.

cant wait for my bday party. except he cant make it. so sad. but its ok, gonna have a blast. might be my last bday in SG so hoping i can make it a big one.



And so finally he (the ex-he) tried giving me some closure in an email. I guess he is really sorry abt it. Though he din say much. Just emailed to clarify things and make me understand a few things I was blogging abt. I din feel anything. No rush of emotions. No sadness. No happiness. At first was pretty pissed he tried to sneak back in and say something and then he had the cheek to try and make me believe his words after everything he did to me. But I had to let it go, and just told myself what’s done is done. If I really wanna let go of things, I can’t hold any burden. So I gave him another email telling him we should end things on a good note and told him I believe he was always true to me despite the way he treated me after we broke up. And told him it would be unfair if I judge him based on the way he treated me after we broke up. I guess I should judge him based on when we were together. I’ll never know his true intention, can be he’s really sorry or maybe he’s afraid I might ruin his rep or he needs to 'save face'. whatever the reason, all i know is that i did my part in having a clean break up. i did my closure. and i guess i dun need ppl in my life who wont make the effort to do things. I guess I really learnt how to let go of things and to always be happy. I dun take things for granted anymore. And I really love being myself. Everything happens for a reason, and all it takes to experience true happiness is to let go of all the baggage that was holding u back. Still got some extra to clear out. But little by little I will be free as a bird.