Faith

Its been officially 14 days. i dun expect anything more then what i have. and i dun want to forget the things that mean more to me. recently, i've been depending on the Lord for help. I'm a crisis prayer, and i want to change that. I dun want to start praying only when i know i'm in trouble. and its a wonderful, unexplainable feeling when u feel ur heart and soul being soothe by Him. just by reading His Word, believing His Word and by trusting Him and having faith, every bad feeling just gets washed away. its not a temporary effect like what smoking and drinking or shopping can give. its a feeling that only comes when u believe in it.

I regret that i didnt get to go to RCIA yesterday at IHM. Father had called me back after i gave my name last sunday. but i dint go cos i felt useless. and pointless. but on the way to work, i was reading my one-minute prayer book for those who are hurt, and i felt so much better then i did these past few days. as what helen always says, its the power of praying. and the most comforting thing to read, is to know that i'm not alone no matter how i feel, cos He is always with me, always comforting my heart.

my mum just called me from Perth after i told her i've been sad. its so nice to have a mother like my mum, who cares so much about me, enough to make a long-distance call after i told her i missed her. i love her so much for doing all she's been doing for me. i cant wait till she's home.

i know i gotta be strong, and as long as i practise my faith, i will have peace at heart. gotta appreciate God's Grace in all the things ard me. the trees, the sun, the good weather, its all his doing. and my frens at work who's been really supportive of me. my dear colleagues who understand how i feel, and constantly asking me to rest if i dun feel good. but i dun wanna take advantage of their kindness.. my job, and my boss who bothers to sit down with me to explain to me the principle of a certain technique.

he has made me very very sad. and i think about him constantly. but i know i just need to get over it. when i do, i'll feel happier then ever.